Need

He never asks me about my day

and I only say what he wants me to say

He doesn’t hold me the right way

and I really don’t care if he feels okay

I am so cold                                            

I’m so busy using him to fill up my empty soul

This isn’t real

Trying to force myself to care for him, just to feel                 

And my body may be satisfied

But my heart and my soul are in desperate need

I am so numb I can’t feel my feet

In desperation I search for my own heartbeat

This dirty room, these filthy sheets

And the books on the floor that he hates that I like to read

He isn’t sweet

He’s so busy using my body to satisfy an ancient need

This isn’t right

I’m dreading that tomorrow comes another night

Where my body may be satisfied

but my heart my mind and and soul are in desperate

Need

In desperate need

They’re in desperate need

In desperate need

And my body may be satisfied

but my heart and my soul  

Pick up the phone

It seems better just to answer than to be alone

This isn’t real

Trying to force myself to care for him just to feel

And my body may be satisfied

But my heart an my soul are in desperate

Need

In desperate need

They’re in desperate need

In desperate need

And my body may be satisfied

but my heart and my soul are in desperate need


Sister

Little sister I believe in you

Don’t let anybody tell you there’s something you can’t do

Don’t let them shut you up or degrade you to just looks

Your future’s so bright they’ll write about it in history books

Little sister I adore you

You are worthy of the good things that come to you

Sister

she is me - she is we

Sister

you do you – and I’ll help you to

Sister

take my hand – together we stand

Little sister I support you 

There will come times where you will have to stand up and push through

I have faith in you and that you keep fighting the fight

until every one of our little sisters can sleep safely at night

Sister

she is me - she is we

Sister

you do you – and I’ll help you to

Sister

take my hand – together we stand

take my hand – together we stand


Shitty day

Once again

the words stick to the inside of my throat

Count to ten

while I try to think of a line or quote

to help me to say what I want to say

to explain why I feel like I feel today

I guess I’m just having a shitty day

I guess I’m just having a shitty day

I’m not really sad, but I’m not at all happy

It’s not that bad, but it’s not as good as it could be

Unfortunately it seems to be a part of being me

I cry - nobody even knows the reason why

It’s just a shitty day

I yell - don’t even matter ‘cause I can never tell

why it’s a shitty day

It’s just a shitty day

I’ll just hope tomorrow will be okay

Patience is

a very important part of being around me

None of this

is an evil scheme to make you feel just as bad as me

When I feel like this everything comes out wrong

I try to hide it and seem cold and strong

I guess I’m just having a shitty day

I’m not really sad, but I’m not at all happy

Unfortunately it seems to be a part of being me

I cry - nobody even knows the reason why

It’s just a shitty day

I yell - don’t even matter ‘cause I can never tell


Declaration

Blocking my view

and forcing my head to look forward and perform

Constant noise from you

‘cause in silence I’ll gather my thoughts and refuse to conform

And I know you’re gonna sing along

Sincerely proud of your contribution

You’re never gonna get this song

But my success will be your absolution

Please don’t cry I’ll keep on agreeing

I’ll close my eyes that’s technically not fleeing

I’ll be the best that’s what I’m guaranteeing

My priority will be your wellbeing  

I’ll be good

Good

  

‘Cause in case I want to close it I’ll have to open up

A soaking hand on me

Took me twenty five years ‘till I managed to free my own tongue

Suddenly I see

my heart is wide open demanding my songs to be sung

And I know you’re gonna sing along

Sincerely proud of your contribution

You’re never gonna get this song

But my success will be your absolution

The expectations come from a new direction

No longer striving for pure perfection

A tiny nod at my own reflection

A long hard process of disinfection

From you

You

This tiny little step is the biggest that I’ll ever have to take

Untangling from your web

I am mine to make         

I am mine to make

‘Cause in case I want to close it I’ll have to open up

I’ll be good

I’ll be good

Never been better



Hold me loose

Until I felt the need, never knew that it was there

Been perfectly fine without it for the last ten years

I’d never let people close to me, no I would never dare   

They’ll like you, you’ll love them, they’ll leave you, if you’re dumb enough to care

Years ago when we met I decided you wouldn’t stay

And since then I’ve worked so hard to help you on your way

I guess I seek the pleasure of proving myself right

but that pleasure seems so hard to find when I lie alone at night

But you can hold me loose

Hold me loose

Hold me loose, hold me loose,hold me loose

You have fought so well both for me and for yourself

You’re stable as a rock and you have been since you were twelve

I try to fight the fight that I have inside my head

There’s no place like our place at our place, our couch and our bed

Where you can hold me loose

Hold me loose

Hold me loose, hold me loose, hold me loose

Hold me loose, hold me loose, hold me loose


Watch the water

The land is yellow and it’s burning like the sun

The forest is sleeping and the summer has begun

All there is is the heat and the light on your smile

Let’s just lie here and enjoy the fire for a while

Another fire is burning a million miles from here

Nobody’s enjoying it, it’s only sparking fear

Roaming around among the ruins and the mess

A little girl with no home and holes in her dress

Hot summer nights come after bright summer days

A lucky coincidence and we’re born in this safe place

And it’s not ‘cause we are worthy, it’s just because we’re lucky to

watch the water from a different point of view

The quiet waves of the ocean lure me in

I love the cool feeling against my sunburnt skin

Floating around like a lily on the Nile

I’ll just lie here and enjoy the water for a while

The ocean reaches a shore so far away

The parents of the little girl have dreaded this day

No parent puts their child into the ocean if they have a choice

A mother screaming at the top of her voice

Hot summer nights come after bright summer days

A lucky coincidence and we’re born in this safe place

And it’s not ‘cause we are worthy, it’s just because we’re lucky to

watch the water from a different point of view

I’ll watch the water from a different point of view

I’ll watch the water from a different point of view

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All songs & lyrics by Sunna Guðlaugsdóttir